Different, Just Different

Seriously, i don't know if i cannot trust my friends in my new school or not. Well, they didn't betray me or what but who knows whether will they do it in future. But from what they say, they make me feel that they can't be trust. They don't believe what i say. they keep thinking that i am lying and that makes me feel that they shouldn't be trust. They claim to take me as a friend but they don't seem to. We don't even talk during recess!!! During lesson, we rarely talk unless there is some kind of project or stuff. Well, first year but since it is the first year and their attitude is so, how am i going to trust them in the future. Well, i don't expect some one to trust me in order for me to trust them but at least don' t think that i am lying. Well, for goodness sake, why should i lie????? Well, even though i still keep contact will my ex-classmates but everything is different, just different. When i am talking to them on the phone, i think that i am somehow talking to a stranger. Maybe it has been a long time since i have seen them but it is really different. Well, since i know my ex-classmates for such a long time, they don't make me feel that they cannot be trust. Haiz......maybe i am just not use to my classmates. But in anyways, they don't make me trust unless things really change......

Sad,Sob,Totally No Comments

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like crying. Haiz......today i got back my papers just to check my scores. When i see my english paper, i was quite happy as the marks i got was quite reasonable but as the papers continue passing down, i am totally depressed. My science and maths are toatlly horrible. That is my ever first time getting that kind of horrifying marks. OMG!!!! I can't even accept it! My chinese, it is very horrible. I think in my whole life, this might be the lowest chinese marks i ever get. I didn't have the courage to tell my parents. This is totally something not to be seen so i didn't tell my parents but they will know as soon as we get back our report books and by that time i will get a big big big lecture. Haiz.... No one to blame but to blame myself. Yes, i did study but i can make sure that i didn't put in my effort. I took the exam lightly and in the end this is what i get, my retribution. Well, i face it but i just hope that the teacher had made some mistakes while marking so that i can get back some of my scores and maybe then, the results won't be so horrible. But this kind of thing can't be sure. Wish so and bless me!!!!

Living in the World of Stress

Woot~ Back to blogging. Done with all exams except CL listening and oral. Feel so stress during the exams period. Haiz..... Now then i found out that secondary school life especially exams are so different. The exams just need to remember alot causing me to lose alot of brain cells and then die faster. It doesn't seem to please everyone's ears but this is fact. Unluckily for me, i am having stress because of exams but now i am sick. So unlucky huh? Now i am having higher chinese. Although i have finished the paper but i am quite worried. Alot of the questions have such similar answers that i have to use guess. Although it is after exams but i still feel so stress. Haiz....thinking that i still got project not done, i feel even more stress. I feel that i am living in the world of stress. Both secondary school life and primary school life, i feel that i am lving in the world of stress but primary school not so stressful. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! My brain is just going to burst! Oh dear now think back again. After CL listening, i still got rehersal for my asthetics. Oh dear oh dear oh dear oh dear........ and now thinking back again, after the rehersals and CL listening, June holidays, i am having oral for both english and chinese and i have to do my N.E . So sian lah! I plainly just don't understand why are we having oral during school holiday. School holiday is for students to relax but not talk exam. Although it is just oral but i still feel stress. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!