28/2/2010

Today, it is the last day of the month, February. Well, time passes so fast. Tomorrow, it will be march and around 1 to 2 weeks later, it will school holiday. Very fast...soon, it will be june and there will be express chinese o level. Soon, it will be december holidays and another new year is going to start. I think i am thinking too far but all these things are just filled up in my mind. I feel that life is starting to get meaningless because all in life is just studying and studying. I have no motive to my future. I don't know what is future like and how is future like. Oh...i think i am thinking too far again but how can i not think far when life is just like that... Maybe that is just my life.

NEW BLOGSKIN!!!

At last, i found a blogskin that i feel so satisfied about. I hope this blogskin can last long but i am just worried that the picture on top will go missing one day and i have to start searching for new blogskin once again... Well, it is very tiring to search for new blogskin and it does waste a lot of time especially when you need to find one that suits your taste and your eyes. Well, grace says that the new blogskin is nice and i do agree to her :) Haiz...i am very tired and i don't know why. I don't know if i am tired mentally or physically. Yes, i am very happy that tests have ended and i know that i will be seeing horrible results that will terrified me but i don't care but i just don't know why am i so tired although i seem to be happy. Sometimes, i feel happy but after a while, i get very upset or depressed. I don't know why am i upset or depressed. My mind is filled with lots of stuffs and that makes it a bit heavy and sometimes painful but i don't know what is filled inside. LOL...although it is my brain yet i knew nothing that is inside... Sounds a bit weird but...i don't know. I am indeed weird anyway. I think starvation is a good way to slim down because i seem to lose some weigh but slowly, i will start to not feel hungry anymore and i won't be eating and this things get bad. Haiz...so many things to worry about. Maybe all those things in my mind is just the things i am worried about.

I have no idea why are you talking to me out of the sudden and this really shocks me.
When you suddenly talk to me, it causes me to like i don't know how to face it.
It confuses my senses and my thoughts. I get mixed up especially on my feelings.
Thankfully, u came around to confuse me after the test or else i will most probably make a mess out of my test.
Please, please, please, let me rest alone because both of us need this and we will get to a conclusion once both of us calm down.

Nothing better after the end of CT

It is friday and it is the end of common tests!!! Next week, the nightmare will happen as all the horrible results will be appearing in front of me. At first, after the chemistry test, i was quite happy since it is the last test of the term and i will have a very good rest for the weekend but then, things get very complicated soon. Well, i got to go find ms noraini to tell her about the clash on history and SS SSP. At last, the conclusion is that SS won. I drew a mindmap the board and i think it is fantastic. The conclusion is an expected result. Since, history ssp is cancelled, we have history homework and currently, i don't feel like doing homework but play all the way but of course that cannot happen. Thursday...I AM GOING TO WATCH ALICE AND THE WONDERLAND!!! I hope it is confirmed but i don't know. Currently, my eyelid is very heavy and i really feel like sleeping but at the same time, i feel like playing computer. During this common test week, i sort of like slim down because i did not have proper meal for lunch or dinner. Example, like today, i did not eat recess and lunch and i suffered hunger until 7.30pm when i finally have my dinner. On Monday, i had my recess but i did not take my lunch and dinner. My mum says it is unhealthy but no choice since i have no time.

I am sorry to say this but i have decided to give up.
I am missing too much of you and this is quite stressful.
The image of you gets even more blurry nowadays and your image is leaving my mind...
I know you want to end this too and i have decided to follow your choice and end this and give up.
I know that i will still be thinking of you but i hope sooner or later, i will forget everything and you will forget everything too.
Let's still be friends just like before :)

I want new stuffs!!!

Hmm...suddenly, i am having this crave to own all these following:

1. New shoe!
2. Rubber ducky strap for my watch
3. New water bottle but i will miss the old one...
4. A froggy soft toy
5. Another oversea trip to europe
6. Get an IPhone (which is most probably impossible)
7. A new laptop (soon...soon...soon)
8. MORE SLEEP!!!

I am too tired to continue

This week is common test week and common test has not end yet. Shockingly, i am using the computer but thankfully i studied my a maths already. My eye bags and dark circles are currently surrounding around my eyes. The day after is chemistry...hope that it will be easy since we studied before last year. Currently, i am very tired and i really want a rest but i don't think such good thing will happen. Don't know why did i have diarrhoea 2 times in a day... I don't think i ate the wrong food but i still don't know what is happening in my body. Haiz... How i wish the wek ends quickly so that i will not have to endure another day of common test. Even though CCA is suspended but not for me since there is SYF. Haiz...this make me feel more tired... Next week, the results of the common test will be out and there will be a 成语test next monday so i got to study 成语during the weekends... Thinking about it, next week, it is march and time passes so fast!!! Thinking about it, during june, there will be an O level chinese exam... Well, yang lao shi says that it should be easy since the papers are way easier than higher chinese papers. All the studying i am going through is just partly one of the reasons why i am too tired to continue. I don't know why but our clique is like...i don't know how to describe but just in a mess. It gets very tiring to see such things happening but it seems like there is nothing to do about it. Haiz... I don't know how things will end but i just hope it is a happy ending which everyone can be satisfied with.

RUGBY = ROUGH

It's Friday!!! And i played rugby today during PE and i had my assessment which was scary and rough. We didn't have a opponent group to play with but after a while, they manage to get a group of china scholar to play with us as they want to have a retest. The game was totally ROUGH!!! I got dragged on the field and my pants nearly dropped off. Well, because i was holding onto the ball and out of the sudden, everyone starts to grab onto me. So, i fall onto the ground so to protect the ball but due to the ultimate strength the scholars have, i was having difficulty to protect the ball. So, they start to drag and drag until i shout "Why are you dragging me on the floor?!?!?!" Then, they let off lightly until Qian Hui gets the ball but sadly, it was an out so haiz... I lied down on the field for a while and sit up and stand up. Well, i got an A by getting dragged on the field... OMG!!! My body which contacted onto the grass starts to get red and itchy. After the game, i was totally exhausted. My arms and legs sore like hell. After the game, i manage to get a conclusion. China scholars have low acceleration and great strength but our local students have high acceleration yet low strength. It sort of balance up but in rugby, strength is much more important and no wonder we lost the game T_T Right after rugby, it is english lesson. When i was writing, my hands were trembling like hell and i could not write properly. DAMN IT! When i stand up and greet the teacher, my legs were like flimsy and could not stand properly. I was so tired and exhausted. Then, when i was about to go to recess, before i reach the canteen, i saw grace and i said "grace, i got bullied" and then, i fall down from the stairs. Because my right knee land on the ground first so it was OUCH! Then, i stood up but could not walk properly. Ain't i unlucky?!?! First, i played rugby so roughly that i cannot write properly and then, i fall off the stairs and cannot walk properly. Then, grace became my temporary crane and walk around wherever i go. LOL! Then, it went ok and recess ended. When school ends, before SSP starts, i went to 3E5 and grace passed me the cookies she made yesterday with the help of ME! Then, it became my lunch. Yu jun also ate it. Then, grace summon alicia to go to 4E3 to pass jinx the cookies grace made for him. So sweet... But alicia like sort of shy... so she call me along. Then, when we passed it to him and alicia said that it was from grace, there are some guys who made the wolf whistle. LOL! Then, i continue eating the cookies. According to alicia, the ones grace made for jinx are in shape of alphabets that form out his name. GRACE IS SO UNFAIR!!! But nevermind because according to alicia, it is sort of about to go black. Although those grace gave us does not have our names but they are prefectly delicious and not black at all. Well, if one eat too much of food that are blacked, one might get cancer. =O I am sorry, grace that i ate so much of your cookies yet i did not pay a cent but don't worry, if u want me to pay it, tell me. On tuesday, must call me along and i will help u make cookies :) Yay!!! It is the weekends but then after the weekends, it is common test week. Haiz... This weekends is just to study through things that are tested on the test. Oh! Sunday, i am going to my third aunt's house and i can go get ang bao. Hehe! And these ang bao will not be divided by 2 in cash :) But then, i will bringing books there to study. Can't exactly waste a single time to not study but seriously, i feel like slacking. Nevermind, i will study in a relax and good mood but i think that will not happen since thinking about the test, it will just make me stress...

The lesser we met, the lesser the feel.
I want to thank you for letting the cold heart to get unlock.
I thank you to let me know what is it feel like although it took me 1 year to understand it.
I thank you for forgiving my stupidness although you know all along what stupid things i have done.
I just hope by thanking you, it isn't the end of everything.
It has been long since i saw you and i know things are changing between you and me.
I know about your life in TJC and you know my life in ZHSS.
I just hope to see you again as it will assure me once again but then, if you do not appear soon, i am just worried you will get replace.
You know he is here...you saw it but you did not do anything.
I don't know if you know how i want it to be but then, please please please do it the way i hope you will.
I trust that you can do it though it is tough.
If it gets too late, both of us will regret one day.
I heard of your happy life with them there but i just hope it is not that of what i think it is.
You know how sensitive i can be so please please please do not make me go too sensitive.
Let our minds get together and think the way both of us have in mind.

Back but not satisfied

I am back from malaysia after celebrating chinese new year. But i am not satisfied. Why? This is because I ONLY HAD 4 DAYS TO ENJOY MY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! ARGH!!! My malaysian cousins have a week to enjoy their new year. Haiz... 4 days is not enough. Today, school starts and everyone is just working and moving for the sake of the upcoming tests! AAAHHH!!! Hmm...i don't knnow how much hongbao money i receive but i don't actually cares. HAHA!!! Haiz... today, in school i was thinking. What for do i study? It is so tiring and so stressful. We go and rush and fight as if we are in a war just for something which i still don't know what is it. I am getting so tired that i want to flung everything but somehow, i just can't do so. Haiz.... life is so tough. Let's not talk about the unhappy things. Let's say some happy things :) I watched 2 movies in malaysia and they are nice. The first one was mentioned in the previous post while the second one was "Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief". Sseriously, i will the story line as it was so cool to have gods and demi gods and many more. OMG! THEY ARE JUST SO COOL MAN!!! Percy Jackson is good-looking but i am not going hua chi just that he looks nice because his eyes are so so so pretty. Oh gosh...i just find ang mo's eyes very pretty. Well, i am hoping for the weekends because i miss my weekend sleep. But then, once weekend ends, it is common test and it is when my hands are off from the computer for a week and on the books for a week and the atmosphere is so so so tense. Haiz...i am so tired. I feel like sleeping yet i want to watch television. Haiz...

It's Chinese New Year!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! It is chinese new year!!! LOL!!! This is the time when one manage to get to eat eat eat and take take take. Eat delicious delicacies and take lots of hongbao :) But sadly to say, i got to maintain my weight so i cannot eat that much T_T Currently, i am at malaysia. As usual, celebrating chinese new year. Sort of like the first day here so didn't do anything much. Just got to eat a reunion dinner and watch a movie, Little Big Soldier. The movie was nice since it was quite funny. Well, another sad thing happen to me during this chinese new year. I got sick! So unlucky. On the last day of school, before the chinese new year holiday, i became "friends" with the flu. Haiz... Although it is chinese new year, the upcoming test is making me upset. Haiz... WHY LIKE THAT??? Well, it is also valentines day but to me, it makes no difference since i don't celebrate it... But nevermind. Haiz... feel so upset because the week after chinese new year is common test and i feel so tired out of the sudden. STUPID TESTS!!! ARGH!!! But nevermind. Keep will the happy mood and forget all the unhappy things so to every reader of this blog, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!!!

My dignity...

My dignity is badly destroyed on wednesday and i am really feeling very hurt and angry. Now, i really hate this person who destroyed my dignity. I won't be writing what happen since i don't want to hurt this person or else he might just complain or scold or whatever. But seriously, i will never forgive that stupid person who destroyed my dignity! Today, i will be going to chinatown with my china scholar who i actually see every weekdays since we are in the same class. I hope it will be fun. Puay suan will be going too and so do Audrey. But seriously, i have no idea what to do when we go there. Do we like walk around or do we like go crazy? But nevermind, it is not that important. As long as we have fun, that will be enough.


DIGNITY DESTROYER!!! GO EAT SHIT LAH!!! YOU ARE SUCH A SACASTIC PERSON AND PLEASE JUST GET THE HELL OF FROM MY SIGHT BECAUSE YOU ARE THE MOST MOST MOST HORRIBLE PERSON I EVER SAW!!! YOU DO NOT DESERVE ANY RESPECT FROM ME!!! STUPID DIGNITY DESTROYER!!! I HATE YOU TO THE CORE!!!

I know a person with an IQ of 300

Indeed, i know a person with an IQ of 300. This person is oftenly mention on this blog and this person is........................................................YEO PUAY SUAN!!! Why do i say she has an IQ of 300. Firstly, she can get an A1 for A Maths without studying. Pro! Secondly, because she has such a high IQ, she think so deep that it just overshot and gone to somewhere. This cause her to lag when people are talking. Like what i always say, people has already talked to part 5 already and miss yeo puay suan can still ask what is going on. By then, the only face i can present to her is -.- Nevermind, that is her. As her friend, should be use to it by now. Now, i am going to make a complain. I am going to complain about Jolyn. She is such a bad bad bad person. She favours puay suan but i am not jealous but just feeling unfair. Why do i feel so? Today during lunch, I asked jolyn for tissue and she say ok. Then, puay suan start singing a song to show that she also wants tissue. Well, normally when one ask first, the other will give the one who ask first with the first come first serve basis but to puay suan, jolyn treat it differently. Jolyn took out her tissue paper and wanted to give it to puay suan and i was a little shocked that i stared at her. When she saw it, she pass the tissue to me. I was fed up by the looking but not fed up in the heart. Very bad right? JOLYN IS BIASED TO PUAY SUAN!!! Well, i told this to alicia and she agree to me. Bad jolyn. Well, puay suan told me something during lunch and i thought about it and now, i agree to it but i have a question to you:
Which school are you targetting for? Is it a JC or poly? And which JC or poly you are targetting?
Well, i have this question is bcause i hope we are aiming for the same school :)
Next, i will talk about botak jones. YAY!!! THE SIDE DISHES ARE BACKED!!! Now, there are side dishes served with the main course without extra cost! Good right? I think it is so much better. YAY!!!

Everything is like a lie...

I don't know who to believe as things are so complicated... Everyone can be talking about the same topic yet the answers are all different. Seriously, i don't know who to believe anymore. It seems to be lie whenever i heard anything that comes out from our clique. I have never seen such a problem when i was at P6 Tolerant. I know that shows that P6 Tolerant rocks! But seriously, everyone is in their secondary school life. Well, i don't like the feeling when you are talking to your close friends yet they are highly possibly lying to you. They change so fast that you can don't even realise that. Yes, i am comparing but P6 Tolerant does not seem to have such complicated problems. Things get more and more complicated as time passes. Is everything really a lie? Am i actually still at primary school but i am just dreaming? I don't like people to change from bad to worst or to be exact, good to bad. I know it is not beyond my control but if i have friends that change this fast, i can never trust my friends ever again. I will have a barrier towards them which isn't good at all and i think it is unaccpetable.

I am just so angry

I seriously don't know why but i am just plainly fed up with anger. I feel like shouting, screaming, scolding or even crying. I am so fed up inside. Maybe because what happen today and just got so fed up. I see people over there doing some stupid things right after my stressful physics lesson. I see people telling me how pro they are. I see people suan-ing as if they very pro but actually they are just like shit! I hear what people tell me about how bad this person, giving me a clearer impression of this person people are telling me about. I get so pissed off during lessons since i got to redo and redo. I bet by posting this, there are people out there suan-ing me noob or whatever or how stupid that i need to redo and redo. At night, i hear my father keep repeating and repeating and repeating that i got to so pissed off that i shouted out. So freakening tired and after everything i see and hear, i just get so so so fed up, angry and pissed off. Yeah...i know, who cares right? No one! I know, there is no one out there who cares! But i am just freakening pissed off that i can only express my anger and unhappiness here! Whatever i saw in pet society is PINK!!! WTF WTF WTF!!! WHY MUST THIS ADD ON TO MY ANGER?!?!?!?! I know, it is not their fault of course but why at this wrong timing???? ARGH!!! I just hope after a good night rest, all my frustration, anger and unhappiness will just leave me alone!


If you are here, right by my side to hear all my unhappiness, i bet i will feel so much better. I know you will listen to all my frustrations without any complaints because that is the something special in you which also becomes so catchy.

What's so great?

Today, i had my geography and i am so happy with it cause i did study :) Oh well, nothing much happen everyday. Days passed so fast and it is already FEBRUARY!!! Today, kind of angry by what sara says. She said "HAHAHA! GEOG STUDENTS! You guys have test, we don't have." To sara: Hey, what's so great about lit students? You just give geog students a bad impression of lit students, do you know? I bet you don't or else you won't say that. I wanted to scold her right in her face but i control myself. Thank you, sara for showing me the how lit students are like. It so stupid that right after chinese new year that week, there will be common test! ARGH!!! SO STRESSFUL!!! It makes life so boring. We are just studying for the sake of test... And there is 2 tests in 1 day. Well, that will be common for sec 3 and so we got to get use to it. Haiz... Whenever i see the amount of homework i have and the amount of things i got to study for test, i just get so sian... Haiz... Seriously, i am starting to like english lesson.Why? Because, during english lesson, we are joking around and doing our work and laughing away. Life seems so relax then. Chinese New Year, as usual, leaving to malaysia for celebration but this time there is something different. I am sort of bringing half of what is in my school bag to malaysia to study! This is due to the fact that the following week is common test -.- Need to study chinese and bring chinese homework tere to do and remember all the things i need to remember. Need to bring physics to brush up and make sure i understand everything. Need to bring e maths most probably to complete the work. Well, if there is any homework given out, i will have to bring to malaysia to do. Haiz...what is chinese new year when i have to do homework. Sadly, i got into FAC once again and i don't know how long am i going to stay there... Having been eating properly for these few days. I have combined 2 meals into one (Lunch + Dinner = 1 meal) It seems like by doing that i do lose a bit. But maybe is just temporary. But i had stomache for these few days... According to puay suan and jolyn, maybe because i did not have proper so i am having stomach upset but nevermind. Sooner or later, i have to get use to it...

2 tests in 1 day

Today, there was A maths and Chemistry test. OMG!!! 2 TESTS IN 1 DAY!!! TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH!!! A maths was a total ruin i think... There was a little problem with my moving of numbers in Q5b. I didn't even bother to do the bonus question once i saw it since it seems so complicated and i thought it will be better if i concentrate on the first 5 questions that are the main questions that provide point for the test. I hope hope hope that i will not fail A maths because i cannot afford to fail another maths... Well, i also don't wish to just pass this test. I hope to score a B3 or A2 for A maths but i don't think that will happen...not much confidence anymore. For chemistry, i got much more confidence but i shall not be over-confident or else failure might be the only word to fix onto my chemistry test paper. I hope i will not fail chemistry and will be able to score well for it since i believe physics is deadly to me. Now, i sort of regret taking physics but maybe it is too late for regretting now. Haiz...friday there will be full geography and all the best for me! Nowadays, some sad things took place. Not exactly sad but just that this person change a lot from sec 2 to sec 3. She suddenly starts to suan me and start showing off. Maybe she does not feel that but to the others, that feel is very strong except to some people like Puay Suan... Alicia, you are right. She changed into a person that shows off and likes to suan people and she feels that she was not suan-ing or showing off. Anyway, PUAY SUAN!!! TOMORROW, I NEED TO DISCUSS WITH YOU ABOUT THIS!!! But i think you will say i am just over-sensitive because you always say so but i still got to discuss with you about this. This is not a feeling from me but from 3 person. Well, me and alicia are the first 2 but for the third one, i will keep it as a secret. HEHE!!!

Very disgusting

Today, i nearly puke out my recess when i see him... Seriously, food really went upwards when i saw him. But by lunch, i have overcome this disgust but jolyn told me another thing that make me disgust now... Somehow i can't escape for this disgust... Jolyn told me about the guy who is obsessed with my water bottle does a stupid thing. He lean his body against my water bottle and don't know do what during chinese lesson when i am at another banding. Seriously, because of what he has done, i got to sanitize my water bottle. Omg...thinking about what he has done to my water bottle...i feel so disgusted. Seriously, i have no idea why is he obsessed with my water bottle. I don't see anything so special that he goes on touching it everytime i left it in my class when i go for banding for chinese lesson. It gets gross as i am drinking from that bottle. I don't understand why am i facing ssuch weird things every week. I go kuku due to the amount of homework i am given and now i faced such gross and disgusting things by my fellow classmate... I got very pissed off about something that i find it major but everyone thinks it is minor. Sorry, i just feel it is an insult to my name. The difference between Law Huisi and Law Hui Si is very the super big!!! So, to everyone, LAW HUISI IS MY NAME not Law Hui Si. Suddenly, i feel that Law Hui Si looks so ugly but Law Huisi looks way nicer :)

How's life in TJC? I just realise when i start talking to you here, i start to calm down and talk to you very calmly. But as time comes, the presence of you not appearing in front of me makes me get very very very sad. I can only view your lastest photos to know how's your going but that does not satisfy me... Haiz... but nevermind. Hope you can enjoy your life at JC and please please be happy :)