OH SWENSENS!

Today, there is 2 papers in the morning. First, it was english paper 2 and there is nothing much to say about. Second, it was social studies. Social studies was kind of horrible since we are rushing against time. 4 source based and 2 essays. I wrote the second essay first and i took around 20 minutes and the second essay i did it within 5 minutes when i was doing my source based halfway through. The second essay was in a mess. the handwriting was super messy and it was very short. I think it is only 1 page long. I think my social studies will be very bad because i have no confidence in it. Haiz...nevermind since everything has past. Now, just got to prepare for the main papers. Just now, i just went to swensen to have my dinner with ranice, jolyn and grace. Well, we made use of the vouchers we had and enjoy free banana split and spend only $13++ on 2 big bowl of salads. We were super crazy. There is some kind of laughing disease spreading among us. I started laughing and grace continued. After hearing our laughter, ranice and jolyn also laughed. We laughed like crazy mad cows and i think it irritated quite an amount of people. There is this couple who was actually sitting beside us but then, they request to change their seats. I think that they think that we are too noisy so they wanted to change their seats. We laughed so loudly and it was quite embarrassing. I took some pictures just now and i will upload it. Right after that, we went home and ranice was telling grace and i some ghost stories. Somehow, her ghost stories really scared us and we did not dare to go to home since it was getting darker. But at last, we did go home and the day just end. Well, today is a happy day although social studies was horrible. Anyway, here are the pictures.

Woman can do what man does

Currently at home watching 红新大奖 and i don't know why am i so enthusiastic about it. Hehe! Early in the afternoon, my mum was drilling the wall to make the thing that hang on the wall so to hang the curtain. Well, she ask my neighbour to help since my mum does not know how to drill and normally, drilling is a job a man does. My neighbour came to help but sadly, the driller the drill blunt after drilling the first 2 holes. There are 6 holes to drill. Since the drill is blunt, my neighbour was not able to drill so my neighbour say he will help the next saturday. Well, my mum was a very impatient person so she has decided to go and buy a new drill. She came back with a new drill but then, there was no one to help us. This neighbour has went out with his son so my mum got to find someone else. But at last, my mum has decided to depend on herself and she drill the hole. That was such an heroic act!!! MY MUM WAS THE MAN!!! She drilled the other 6 holes herself and i was just watching her drilling while playing my dad's blackberry. But, i feel that the curtain is a little bit unnecessary but nevermind. Seriously, after this, something came up to my mind: Who says a woman can't do what a man does? Well, my dad is out oversea and even though he is in singapore, there is some other medical reasons cause him not able to drill and stuff. After seeing this, i realise that i am very very very useless... My mum is so so so daring that she has the guts to drill holes and she has the guts to do so many other things. Even if i can be daring but never will i have the capability my mum has and never will i have the guts my mum has. My dad, totally a historical and geographical geek. Good at road directory and current affairs and so many other things and me...never will i be as good as my dad in history and geography and never will i be so hardworking and get a lookout on current affairs. Even my road directory is better than my mum but still very bad. I feel that i am such a failure... I seem to be a disappointment to my parents... Haiz... I also realise that when there is an aim, i will be able to succeed and fight for that aim. Example like last year, i have an aim in my mind. My aim was to get GPA and therefore, i study very hard and make sure i get GPA. At last, i got my aim and got my GPA. But this year, i don't really have an aim. I should not be aiming for good results for O level since O level is next year. Now, i don't really have an aim therefore i am really relaxing and slacking and i believe i will flunk in a lot of subjects and i will get very lousy results. But i admit this faith since i don't see the meaning of life...

Really miss talking to you in REAL LIFE.
Really miss hearing your jokes that freak me out or even pissed me off.
Well, i also miss hanging out with you and lion and cousin.
I see the importance of your words and understand them thoroughly.
Maybe i need someone to talk to but i really hope you or lion will just appear.
You guys know how depressing i feel now...
You guys see that i see the zero hope in life.
You guys know that i am giving up and anytime...i might just do really stupid things that should never cross my mind.
Hey dude, come and save me...
Sometimes, your craps might just bring me back to the right path...

Aching here and there

Today is a normal school day but it is when all the tests are over and we are preparing to receive all the horrible terrible results. Well, there is 5 times PFT in the afternoon. Ok...today i got back english, a maths and geography. I can only say phew when i receive my english... For a maths, my estimated score is 27 after doing the paper but due to careless mistakes, i lost 6 marks!!! WTH!!!!! If i was not careless, i would have get my 6 marks!!! T_T Very disappointing very disappointing. Geography...it is a total failure. Although it is a pass, i am not satisfied at all!!! It was plainly horrible, really horrible. Well, all 3 subjects are Bs but only english is B3 and a maths and geography are B4. I am still feeling very depressed because i believe i have flunked both my sciences and i really feel hopeless on science. Thursday...most probably getting chinese back but not anticipated at all... It is very negative but since it is so horrible, i should be forgiven to be so so so negative. In the afternoon, 5 items and i consider it as horrible because many items have deproved. Especially for standing board jump. My jump was the length i jumped when i was primary 4!!!!! WTH!!! But i am very happy for my sit and reach because i passed by 1cm. I never wanted to score super good for sit and reach because it is beyond my "reach" therefore, getting a pass is good enough. Shuttle run...well, i maintain the same standard sine primary 4 until now but just that the grades are different every year. Sit-up, no comments and just A. Inclined pull-up, i did 12 but i think i wasted the chance. I should have done 17 and get an A. It is just 5 more to an A but i a plainly lazy and din't bother to. But anyway, due to my sit and reach, i have already dropped to a bronze so who gives a damn now. Next monday, i will be retaking my 2.4km run and i really hope i will pass. Well, after the 5 items PFT, my body aches here and there. This shows that i have been exercising too little. Yesterday during PE, our class did a trial for the whole of 5 items and due to that, today there is muscle aches here and there. Maybe due to muscle aches, i am not able to perform the test in my best condition. But now, everything has passed and nothing to say anymore. Even though i have flunked all my sciences as believed, nothing can be changed but just to face that horrible terrible fate...

HDB 50th Anniversary

Today, there is this HDB 50th anniversary thingy and i went there. I cough my way there and cough my way back. We got to do a 200 words reflection and Mr Eugene Lee says that our reflection will be shown to everyone so we got to do it well. WTH!!! Haiz...i bet if i have gone to flag day, i don't have to do what reflection. At the thingy, we got to listen to the speaker as he introduces the HDB history and then, we managed to get some freebies from it. Well, we managed to get free popcorns but we got to rush to finish it before we get on the bus. Time passed very fast at the thingy. When i thought it has only passed 1 hour, the whole event has ended... Flag day seems to be much more fun compared to this HDB thingy but it is much more tiring. After the whole thingy, we met up with ranice and alicia at bishan J8. Well, grace, jolyn and i went to pasta mania to have lunch. Well, history repeated and this time grace put lots and lots of chilli onto her pasta. After eating less than half of her pasta, she went to 7-11 to buy a 1.5litre mineral water to drink. She put too much of Tabasco chilli sauce onto her pasta. At the same time, her pasta is spicy originally. Her mouth and face and nose turn red and her eyes were tearing. But this time, she was not very high. Then, alicia and ranice came along. Alicia ate a bite of Grace's pasta and alicia's face turn red and her eyes was going to tear. Sadly, i am too lazy to upload the photos i took at pasta mania but nevermind. One day, it will appear somehow. It seems to be very spicy. When i tried, it was quite spicy but still can tolerate. Then, we chit chat on some things and i was busy playing with jolyn's iTouch. Later, i went home with ranice and i was busy playing with ranice's iTouch. Hehe...i take turn to play with 2 different people's iTouch. Omg...i am still coughing. When can my cough recover??? Seems like i am taking my retest on monday and i am quite worried that i fail again. Oh...there is physics test on monday and got to study hard since my physics is weak. Haiz...

Query in my head:
Do i really look like ang moh without my spectacles?

Don' be sad, don't cry.
You are quiet but doesn't mean you should hide everything to yourself.
I know i am not that optimistic but i really hope you will not be that sad and unhappy.
It is really scary and hurtful to hear your tears and see it sometimes.
You have been strong and you have managed to withstand it for so long so continue to be brave and stand strong.
I can always be your listening ear so don't cry silently.
But...always remember...男儿泪水不易流。

I don't like to be sick but i am sick!

It has been long since i ever blog here. But nowadays, there is tests here and there so no time to use computer and no time to blog. Even if there is time to blog, there is nothing interesting to say since everyday is just like stress stress stress. Sick sick sick, really sick. Coughing quite badly and i think i am going to die. Ok...everytime whenever i am sick and i cough badly, i will always say that i am dying. Within these few days, i realise that sugar makes you high high high. Well, i ate sweets in class for a consecutive of 3 days and what happen? I went on laughing like a crazy fellow. I can laugh for no reason or whenever i just start laughing and it somehow can't stop. After eating sweets for 3 consecutive days, the next day, i got a little sore throat. Maybe because i laugh too much and sweets do harm one's throat. The day before yesterday, there is 2.4km PFT and i failed!!! By 4 seconds.... WTH!!! I always fail by just a little bit. Yes i do regret but what more can i do other than get a retest. I wanted to take my retest today and the weather is so not cooperative and it rained. It rained quite heavily and the track is wet and it is not suitable for running unless i can ensure that i will not fall during the run which is most probably impossible. Yesterday, there is a maths test and afte some calculation after the test, i can say that the maximum score i can get is only 27/34. Today, there is chinese and chemistry test. Chinese test...quite disappointing. I left 2 blanks for the first section since i can't think of the words to put in. Then, the third section, comprehension...i think i wrote too little and somehow i am worried that i will score very low. Well, i take my chinese results very seriously and if i really score badly for it, it is very disappointing in the aspect of me and my mum. Chemistry test was just horrible. I was just randomly answering questions. I have no idea what the hell am i writing i think... Somehow, i understand the question but somehow i don't know if i am answering to the question... Haiz...there is test on monday which is physics and i am really worried since my physics isn't that good and i really need to study hard in order to score well. Monday, i think i will always take retest for 2.4km during PE lesson and i don't feel like running in the school compound. Haiz...suddenly i feel very tired of life. Why why why? These 3 words are always floating in my mind. Tomorrow, there is this HDB 50th anniversary thingy and after it, there is a reflection to do. I guess it is boring... Actually, i was supposed to go to flag day which has more CIP hours but then, there is some conflicts and things than i went to this HDB thingy. Cough cough cough...sick...haiz...tired...sian...

I have exploded...

Today should be a normal day but it somehow turn out to be adnormal. First period was history and nothing much happen. Then, everything changed during a maths. Our class was doing cubic equations and there are 2 methods to work it out. First method is to use comparing of coefficient and the second method is to use long division. Somehow which i don't know why but i just can't visualise and do it using compaing of coefficient successfully. Slowly, i was starting to have a headache. Then, bell ring and it was CE. We got to go back to class. On the way back to class, my mind is still thinking on how to solve the equation using comparing of coefficient. My head was still aching... When i got back to class, i have decided to work it out using long division and just somehow change the numbers here and there and it seem like i have used comparing of coefficient. Maybe because i thought too much before that and my head is already aching, so when i start to work on long division, my head went into an extreme pain. It was freaking pain and i really really want a painkiller at the point of time. Sadly, no one has it so got to bear with it. Soon, it was recess. My head is still aching like hell. The pain is like a worm that goes from the front of my brain to the back and back to the front. While walking out of the class, one of the scholar did not notice and bump onto me. Well, i was feeling terrible yet she bumped onto me but nevermind. I will bear with it first. When i stepped out of class, jeslyn jumped out from my back and jump on me. Somehow which i don't know why but i exploded. Really exploded. I shouted out super loud that it scared many people and at the same time, i shocked myself too. After shouting, there is this sudden strike that seem to hit the back of my head. I continue to walk a few steps but somehow, the head got heavy and my vision a little blurry. Then, i turned myself and went to the toilet instead. Somehow which i don't know why again, my tears start to flow down my cheeks. This does not seem to be beyond my control and it is crazy. After that, i went down to the canteen. Stupid head is still aching like hell. I ask yu jun. Why is my head so pain and why did i shout so loud that it scares so many people and why did i cry beyond my control. She said it was under mental stress. Maybe i am going to have a mental breakdown. First time ever i shouted that loud and i have never never never shouted that loud. After shouting, my throat hurts... I have no idea why i shout too. Maybe it is just all the stress that i am relieving. Maybe i am under too much of pressure and stress. Once a carefree person who goes everywhere crazily have to settle down and study and compete with all the strong and mighty students. This is crazy and killing for a carefree person. Too much of this pressure and stress will bring this carefree person to a mental breakdown. I am very sorry that i shouted at jeslyn and seriously, i didn't mean it at all. I am also sorry for scaring those people on the corridor. Maybe it is time for me to visit the counsellor or mr ang but i think i won't since i tend to keep things to myself instead. Most probably because i kept too much thing to myself and when i explode when i shout, the shout turn out to be so loud. Maybe i really need a rest. THE CAREFREE PERSON NEEDS A REST!!! Once carefree will always want to continue to be carefree but is that possible? I don't know...

Success but really very sad

Today, it seems to be a happy day although there are some unhappy things that happened. Well, let's go by chronological order. First thing that happen was actually like a continuous of yesterday. That/The thing made me got into insomnia because i really thought that it was something that is bad which is going to happen the next day and it seems like it is going to happen on me but no one wants to tell me what is going to happen and just let the thing happen. The words that appeared in my mind was worried and scared. When i went to school today in the morning, i was asking what was the thing!!! But then, no one wants to tell me so nevermind, leave it first. During assembly, mr ang wants to like have a conversation. He asked questions on family and studies and he thought that my dad owns the company of NCR. And i was like laughing and telling him "No lah! Hahaha!" After the conversation, i went back to class and at last...i managed to know what is the thing!!! It was a birthday present and thank you for that. I didn't open it at first but i saw the card. Very cute...LOL! Then, it was physics. One period soit is just going through of examples. But, i am very sorry Miss Ng...really very sorry. I don't mean to hit you with the chair. I AM SORRY. Then, chinese lesson came and the bad news came to my ears and i nearly cried out when i was walking back to class. On wednesday, i will be re-banded to the taiwanese female teacher class which is a band 2 class. Very sad because no more yang lao shi. I WANT YANG LAO SHI TO TEACH ME!!! I WANT TO BE IN THE SAME CLASS AS ELAINE MEI MEI!!! Very sad, really very sad. T_T I know it is a bit ridiculous to cry or whatever but just...very sad. What if this taiwanese female teacher make me dislike chinese? Very sad, really very sad. Then, during recess, went crapping with the clique. You won't want to know what were we crapping about. Hehe! Next, we had chemistry. 3 lessons in one go! It is fun because it is practical and this time it is very successful for me!!! YAY!!! YES YES YES!!! WOOT!!! I took 15 minutes to complete the whole titration process with quite accurate results. Initially, i was quite worried if my experiement will fail or become inaccurate but luckily, it turned out good :) Very happy about it and very excited about it still. Haha! Next, it was english lesson. Nothing much to say because it is just plainly madness. After school, i was in class and i saw grace, yu jun and puay suan at the door with sexy sara. Then, we invade in my class, 3E2. Well, the main motive of invading was just to look at the present. Well, listen to grace's craps and manage to do some weird things on her. Hu Ju manage to make puay suan understand one physics MCQ question and hu ju thinks that puay suan is a good student. Well, jolyn was busy with her stuff so we didn't bother her. When it was around 2.30pm, everyone went back to their class for SSP. Jolyn complete her stuff and i was telling her that puay suan, yu jun and grace came and she said that she did not notice they came or left. LOL! Although it is weird since, i saw her turning her head towards our direction but maybe she is too deep in her thoughts. Well, then we had our chemistry SSP. We were working on mole concept 5. Well, mole is fun. Seriously, everything can be fun as long as you understand the concept of it. But sadly, i don't manage to understand many things so sometimes, i don't manage to have fun in it. After SSP, i have CCA and got to rush down. There was some briefing on the upcoming competition and we have to do some sketches our plans on the competition artwork. Today will be the last day for CCA until mid-year exams are over. Therefore, the competition, we got to do it ourselves whn we are free and got to complete it by 1 June. Currently, having a conflict at home due to universal studios tickets. I won't want to further elaborate but this conflict just sucks!

Can't be forgotten

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELAINE MEI MEI AND TO MYSELF!!! WOOT!!! Today, it is april fool's day and it is the only day that actually we joke on teachers, teachers will not scold us or whatever and we prank on mr ang and miss noraini! HAHAHA!!! Although it was my birthday but i got beaten up from people. Due to that, i can never forget this day. For 15 years, i have never got beaten up during my birthday. It was certainly crazy. It was crazy during lesson and also crazy after school. Elaine and i received big presents. During recess, grace wanted to sing bithday song for me but i don't want it so i start running away but somehow, she is so scary that i almost failed but luckily, i managed to escape for her scariness. After school, alicia, janee, yu jun, puay suan and i wanted to go to bishan to watch clash of titans. But sadly, alicia has ssp so we got to wait for her. To occupy time, i went to e1 to have fun. But before going to e1, jolyn, jun hao and i were unwrapping presents except for alicia and the other 5 people share cost present since it was the biggest. Well, but i unwrapped it at e1. While having fun at e1, jun hao pop out from nowhere again. Then, he started playing with the present from jolyn and the share cost present (the biggest present). Well, i told some funny photos that he arranged with the soft toys. Soon, jeslyn appeared and got attached to the purple elephant. Then, jeslyn and jun hao don't know start doing what and puay suan thinks that they match and puay suan and me managed to get some photos for matching them up. LOL! HAHAHA! Then, i started to get beatings from those soft toys but mainly controlled by jun hao and jeslyn. As expected, jun hao hit the most and always aim my head and jesyn came along after i started to crap. After jeslyn goes for her CCA, i managed to get some peace. Well, when alicia appeared after her ssp, yu jun, puay suan, janee, alicia and i left to J8 to watch clash of titans. Well, it is quite nice but the graphics will be better if we were watching 3D. After this movie, i got a little confuse whether percius is the son of zeus or poisedon. Quite an amount of fightings but it is very interesting. But, i will still prefer percy jackson and the lightning theif :) Anyway, to end my blog post, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE AND MYSELF ND TO THOSE HAVING THEIR BIRTHDAYS TODAY!!!