I don't know

I don't know if i am doing the right thing. It is the only way i can know something but if she knows about it, she will hate me. Well, i know i making a risk but that's the only way to find out more. I hope i am doing the right thing but seriously, i am not sure. It is now not only my secret since i told it out but i really hope she will keep the secret. It will just be between both of us...