I know i am badly traumatised

Damn it...i don't know why the freakening hell am i so scared. It is so stupid...my mum jokes about it and i know if such thing happen on her or my dad, they will not be so scared. But i seriously do not know why i am so scared. I can only say i am badly traumatised. Since young, i am just scared of it and until now, i am still scared. It is something i can't get rid of. I can say i am scared of this more than long hair... I think it is necessary to get rid of this fear i just can't. No one can help me, neither can my parents. If i face such problem yearly, i really don't know how can i make it through. I would rather sit the world most exciting and scary roller coaster than facing such a thing.