Am i gonna breakdown?

Today, there is an E Maths test. Well, i complete the whole paper but i am left with a bonus question not done. According to my teacher, if the first 7 questions gfull marks, bonus question is useless. Well, bonus question is like a back up. Haiz...it is getting tiring in school and it is starting to get stressful. Everyday there is SSP except for wednesday. But that is all about sec 3 life. Okay...i just realise that every post i put nowadays, there is this phrase "That is all about sec 3 life". Well, it sounds like i am nagging about it but...i don't know...maybe i am nagging about it but it is just so...sian... Test test test...they are all coming towards my direction or should i say, everyone's direction. Suddenly, i have no more confidence in studies anymore. Suddenly, i feel like giving up in everything, ending my ownself but then, i just can't bear to leave now because there are some things that i have not see. I don't like to compete hard but it is not bad to have a friendly competition. But competition kills a lot of cells and it is very tiring... I am having headache like everyday in school but i think maybe i am scaring myself...haiz...but i really don't know. Another phrase that i use very frequently nowadays, "I really don't know". Maybe i just need a rest but this rest seems to be too early. Maybe it is time to boost myself but i really don't know... Am i having a breakdown?

So distance yet so close...i really don't know...You seem to be appearing right beside me but actually you are so so so far away from me...