I have exploded...

Today should be a normal day but it somehow turn out to be adnormal. First period was history and nothing much happen. Then, everything changed during a maths. Our class was doing cubic equations and there are 2 methods to work it out. First method is to use comparing of coefficient and the second method is to use long division. Somehow which i don't know why but i just can't visualise and do it using compaing of coefficient successfully. Slowly, i was starting to have a headache. Then, bell ring and it was CE. We got to go back to class. On the way back to class, my mind is still thinking on how to solve the equation using comparing of coefficient. My head was still aching... When i got back to class, i have decided to work it out using long division and just somehow change the numbers here and there and it seem like i have used comparing of coefficient. Maybe because i thought too much before that and my head is already aching, so when i start to work on long division, my head went into an extreme pain. It was freaking pain and i really really want a painkiller at the point of time. Sadly, no one has it so got to bear with it. Soon, it was recess. My head is still aching like hell. The pain is like a worm that goes from the front of my brain to the back and back to the front. While walking out of the class, one of the scholar did not notice and bump onto me. Well, i was feeling terrible yet she bumped onto me but nevermind. I will bear with it first. When i stepped out of class, jeslyn jumped out from my back and jump on me. Somehow which i don't know why but i exploded. Really exploded. I shouted out super loud that it scared many people and at the same time, i shocked myself too. After shouting, there is this sudden strike that seem to hit the back of my head. I continue to walk a few steps but somehow, the head got heavy and my vision a little blurry. Then, i turned myself and went to the toilet instead. Somehow which i don't know why again, my tears start to flow down my cheeks. This does not seem to be beyond my control and it is crazy. After that, i went down to the canteen. Stupid head is still aching like hell. I ask yu jun. Why is my head so pain and why did i shout so loud that it scares so many people and why did i cry beyond my control. She said it was under mental stress. Maybe i am going to have a mental breakdown. First time ever i shouted that loud and i have never never never shouted that loud. After shouting, my throat hurts... I have no idea why i shout too. Maybe it is just all the stress that i am relieving. Maybe i am under too much of pressure and stress. Once a carefree person who goes everywhere crazily have to settle down and study and compete with all the strong and mighty students. This is crazy and killing for a carefree person. Too much of this pressure and stress will bring this carefree person to a mental breakdown. I am very sorry that i shouted at jeslyn and seriously, i didn't mean it at all. I am also sorry for scaring those people on the corridor. Maybe it is time for me to visit the counsellor or mr ang but i think i won't since i tend to keep things to myself instead. Most probably because i kept too much thing to myself and when i explode when i shout, the shout turn out to be so loud. Maybe i really need a rest. THE CAREFREE PERSON NEEDS A REST!!! Once carefree will always want to continue to be carefree but is that possible? I don't know...