1 September

It is the 1 september and it is teachers' day! Yay! It is a break for all students and maybe teachers. But somehow, i don't feel like it is a rest day. There are so many homework to work on but some are due after the september holidays. 2 more days of schooling and it will be the september holidays. It is supposed to be a happy thing but i can't be happy afterall. Why is that so? Well, because during this holiday, there will be lots of homework throw towards us so to prepare us for our end of year exams. Suddenly, i feel so tired of studying. Life seem so meaningless when everything is just study study and study. Suddenly, i feel that my brain stopped working and i cannot study anymore or even remember anything. This 3 years seem so short out of the sudden and we are so close to o levels... I don't even have time to read my 弯弯!!! Haiz... Well, i say not continue more on this horrible studying future but let me say something on what happened on the last day of the august 2010. Yesterday's aces day was bad to me. Why? Because the distance is longer than the previous years by quite a lot. Jolyn had band contingent yesterday and therefore she requested for our pair to run first. They said ok and so we went on. As they countdown from 10, something really confusing took place. Here is their countdown: 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, GO! I was stunned at that moment. I was like huh after 4 is go? We didn't start running until zhang lao shi went "GO GO GO!!!" And we ran. Ran passed D&T block, ran passed alicia and grace's class and heard them shouting. When we reached the art gallery, i realised i cannot carry on with the bag on me anymore, so i exchange the bag with jolyn. Jolyn carried the bag and we continued running. When we got back to the area where our class is, i was getting out of breath like i am able to die... Then, we went to sit down and drink some water to rest. Feel like puking but wasn't able to puke out anything. After aces day's running, we went back to class and went to the hall to watch the teachers' day performance. It was a nice performance and i am impressed by the talented people from in my school. After that, our class prepared a cake for our form and co-form teacher. Well, in fact jolyn and i did not eat the cake because jolyn was not feeling well and i don't want to eat cake... Then, we went out where grace, yu jun, puay suan, ranice and sara were. They were actually just outside our class. Ranice took out the container of grace's cookies and we started eating them. Well, it is much better than the last time grace made the cookies. Good improvement! Then, grace went crazy and started zapping people because we called her gorilla again and she kept on carrying her bag and claimed that she was pregnant -.- We called zhang lao shi and told her that grace is pregnant and it is a twins in her tummy. Then, zhang lao shi says that it is not twins but it is triples! HAHA!!! When grace continued to zap ranice, ranice went shouting like crazy and people near the window in my class were a little shocked. HAHA! When grace came to zap me, i ran around shouting for help but no matter what, grace will never spare me. After this, we left school. Then, i have decided to call puay suan GM chimpanzee! Actually, i was supposed to go back to primary school but then, things happened and i was not able to make it back. Sorry to all my primary school friends. Soon, all of us went home and started working on e-learning and homework. Haiz...talking about homework, i am not done when them yet and i need to hand it in tomorrow. Oh gosh... And i really hate nose block! IT IS SUPER DUPER IRRITATING!!!

I feel really horrible terrible.
Help me...
My heart aches badly for some reasons but i really don't know what it is.
For you or not, i don't know.
Somehow i hope it is really you because i really can't find another reason for my heart to ache.
I know this may just be a lie to lie to myself .
But tell me, how can endure to it if i don't do it this way?