It's like a story of life

My mum says that i am under great stress because everyday i am having headache, during school or after school. I seriously don't know what is stress... It seems like stress is the thing that can boost a person to move forward but stress can also be the thing that hurt the person thoroughly. At this moment of time, this person really hopes that the one who can listen to her pain will be right beside her... Everything is like a story. Now, i am thinking if everything is a dream. What am i doing, what i am in, is this all just a dream of another person. Am i living in a dream of another person? But everything is too real to be a dream. But if it is a reality, it seems to be to painful. There is a phrase in chinese which goes like this “天將降大任于是人也，必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨." From this phrase, it seems like everything is not a dream but it is reality... Well, but everything in life is so story based... I feel so seriously. Sometimes, as i think back into the past years i have gone through. Everything is quite smooth and things are quite peaceful but somehow from this year onwards, many things change. In anyways, everything is just too real to be a dream and the story of a human life continues until the person dies.

I just realise that i feel that this post is totally crap!

Although i know that i do not like the feel of talking to you like this but it seems like this is the only way i can communicate.
Many says that you are not the one that is desired in my mind but just the one desired in my heart.
But somehow you are just the one.
May you just let me see you as you walk but please please do not turn back and look at me.
My eyes will let out all the truth, everything i want to say to you.
I know what i am doing is just cheating myself but i cannot accept the hurtful truth that you will tell me once you turn and look at me...
Maybe it is not as hurtful as i thought it was but can you please please let me enjoy the wonderful time of looking at you, having you in my dreams day and night.
Indeed, indeed, dreaming of you day and night do make me crazy but at least i can enjoy the few minutes of craziness with the invisible you...
I admit it is stupid but just let me be because i never want to be that stupid like how i want to now.