Suicide

Everyone wants to commit suicide after receiving their test results. Well, i have calmed down and don't feel like committing suicide anymore. Well, when i wanted to (right aftter a maths test), no one wants to die with me but now, everyone wants to die and i find life okay... Sometimes, i don't understand...people who never studied said that they scored badly because they are poor but seriously, i don't think so. I believe that everyone has the potential in themselves (excluding me) so, if you studied for your test, you will not fail or whatever. But some people like me, studied yet score badly is another story. Everyone says they want to jump down from the 4th level of ZHSS but i don't think it is a smart way to die. You will most probably survived being handicapped or paralyzed or even becoming a vegetable. So, if you want to die, jump down from a higher building but the best way to die is to die without blood. Today, when i was at the art gallery browsing through the distinction pieces of work from our seniors, i realise how stressful life is. Some of them drew out the stress they are facing and how tired they are and i realised that i am turning old. Well, not old as in age or phyiscally but old mentally. I am starting to get tired of this stressful, boring life. Maybe just because i have not find the interest in life. Or maybe because my life is just plainly too average. Well, of course there is a benefit to have an average life but you will be nobody in the society. You will just be a person there, just there and with or without you does not make a single difference. Well, this does not mean that i want to make something big or special out o my life but when life gets too average, it gets very boring...