Problem Solving

It has been 3 months since the start of 2011 and so many many things happened. These things really contribute a lot to head ache. Initially, i thought i won't have headache so early but it seems like i am wrong. After since the start of common test, my headache came back. Common test results came back terribly and i really have nothing to say about myself. First problem i faced is the horrendous common test results. Second problem i faced was the march holidays. I don't really want to talk about the second problem but all i can say is that life is quite terrible. Or maybe this year is not a very good year for me but hopefully that i not the reason since i am taking my o levels this year. Holidays, there are problems here and there. Non-holidays, there are so many homework to do and so many things study. How to cope? But i am trying my best. I think i am really going mad. Maybe i am not the studious kind of student. And since i am not the studious kind of student, why must i be in such a stressful class? Why must i be in a class filled with scholars and smart people and they are so competitive and i really feel stressful. To certain extend, i think i am just useless. I am like a stupid dumb that manage to smuggle into a genius class. I really don't want to bother about the class ranking or school ranking but can it be possible? Definitely not! Pressure is placed hard down and my head seems to be unable to withstand the pressure. So stressful, so tiring. I really hope to have a break but how can it be possible? Problems come and can i solve them? With this kind of pressure, definitely i can't! I believe as days passed, my head will ache more and more and i don't think it will end until o levels has passed. Why do i have to suffer mentally whenever it comes to national exams? Initially, i was quite confident that i might be able to hit my minimum target but now, i have not a single confident whether i can get a 1 digit L1R5... Sometimes, i really wish that i could give up, well, to certain extend, give up my life. But i can't be selfish, can i? Sometimes, being selfish may be a problem solving but definitely, it is a short term solution. But is there any long term solution to resolve my problem?