似乎时日不多了。。。

Suddenly, i feel very pain, very pain. All the different emotions are going to burst. Firstly, i was deeply attack by the horrible results. Secondly, my mum was telling me about life and death and how to face death. Thirdly, just now, not long ago, i was watching a chinese documentary on Israel and Palestine. To be exact, they are just Palestinian. Lastly, the music they are playing are just very down and it really pushes my emotions to the limit. After all of these, i really realise 时日真的不多了。。。Maybe time is coming to an end soon... In the afternoon, i was with my mum on the road. The road was wide and board. There are little oncoming cars. Well, while i was walking across the road, somehow i really hope that there is a car that will drive towards my direction and just knock me down...end this bloody hell life. I have been controlling...controlling all my tears since yesterday. My mum tell me lots of things about life and death these few days and i really cause an uprise in my emotions. Controlling my tears is quite tough but i am still good in it somehow... Palestinians living near the dead sea are really very pathetic. They seem to be labelled as "unwanted kids". Isreal claim that they are palestinians but the palestine claim that they are Israelis. Well, it seems to be very unfair to them but they have no choice. Sad thing to say. The results i received are majority catogaries as SHIT! Holy shit...i just bloody hell feel like giving up. Tired and tired and tired. Somehow, the only phrase that is in mind and appears right in front of my eyes is “似乎时日不多了。。。” Not much time left i guess...