Shocked/Stunned/Scary Day

Now is only like 8pm++ but somehow it feels like 9 to 10pm already... Anyway, today is a scary day really scary! I thought i will be in a better mood but it seems like it is nothing better. Today, i just realised that during chinese lesson, i don't really have many people talking to me... For example, in class whenever i am in same band with jolyn, i can crap with her sometimes although sometimes she doesn't seem to hear me. And during other lessons, i can also crap with xin yu with really very crappy stuffs. But chinese lesson, no one to talk to. Everyone is busy working on their work and it is so boring. I think chinese lesson was the main culprit that made me so pissed for today. The weather is so hot and no one to talk to which is so boring. I cannot say that during chinese lesson there is no one talking to me thoroughly but what i mean is like no one can chit chat with me as i let out my grumbles. Sometimes, i really don't like chinese lesson. Firstly, the fengshui of my seat is quite bad i think. It makes me feel sleepy. Next, i have no one to talk to which make me feel so lonely but no matter what, it is too late. Seriously, i now hope that there is no chinese lesson tomorrow and i can go celebration even though exams are coming. Today, i said and did many harsh things purposely. After saying it, i feel guilty but what is said or did cannot be taken back. Well, like what i always say last time, i hope that tomorrow will be better but whenever i said that, it just does not turn out BETTER! Seriously, i am very tired of this stupid mood swing that is way beyond my control... Anyway, i should talk about the scary thing that happen today. After recess, there was a fight... I think it stunned the class when this happened. Puay suan was outside the class but was even more stunned that all of us. She went back to her class and told yu jun that it was very scary. We didn't know much about what is happening but no matter what, it is really very horrifying. There is someone who got injured. Seriously, who will ever expect that such thing will just happen. And it just happened in front of mrs ho. Mrs ho was very more shocked. All her emotions were displayed on her face. Soon, everything ended and lesson resumed. Sometimes, how i hope that there is someone who i can say out everything to. So that i don't have to keep everything to myself. It is very tiring to keep everything to myself. It is like stuffing my heart, suffocating me. And today, when i was taking the bus home, when the bus was about to reach the stop i need to get down from, the bus engine suddenly went crazy. The whole bus just shut down! Well, everyone in the bus were very shocked. The bus driver tried a lot of times to start the engine again and again. I think around 5 to 6 times later, the engine started at last. It was raining heavily and i managed to get down my bus stop. Anyway, today my dad ask me a very random question. He said "Huisi, 1 october is children's day right?" I replied "Yeah". Than he said "Then, that day you don't have school right?" Well, i was a little shocked and i could only show my dad this face -.- and continue saying "I am no more a child how to celebrate children's day?!?!" Haiz...my dad is still living in a world that i am still a child.